Sunday, October 28, 2007





"Simplicity" almost everytime comes to the rescue

I am glad, it's there.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Human quirk

Saying; “I don’t believe in God.”

Thinking; Thank God, she survived.

Saying; “I don’t need your help.”

Thinking; Please help me.

Saying; “I believe in honesty.”

Thinking; What if she finds the truth?

Saying; “Okay, lets just be friends.”

Thinking; I love you

Saying; “Yes”

Thinking; No

Saying; “I am not scared.”

Thinking; I am screwed

Saying; “Don’t worry; I know what I am doing.”

Thinking; what am I doing?

Saying; “I have a lot of friends, life is perfect.”

Thinking; I am lonely

Me saying; “I always say what I think.”

Me thinking; Nah…


Sunday, October 21, 2007

Black or White

Aware or unaware
Agree disagree or indifference
Yes or No
Right or wrong

The more the chaos, the greater the understanding of the importance of clarity of thought. I do believe that black or whites in relation to ideas do exist and that, grays are a very significant mean to attain this clarity. Dealing with grays is the most chaotic; painful at the same time can be a very enlightening experience if the purpose is to (try to) achieve an extreme or a definite answer. With times our ideas and beliefs may change because of experience influence etc. and it is important to be objective and rational in the ideas we adopt and in our thought process.

In 27 years of my existence I have, adopted and almost abandoned my ideas with time, experience and sometimes due to strong and fortunate influences. But, how many of these ideas can I truly know and believe that I will keep for years to come and even for as long as I live, very few. Am I even able to express them clearly with reason? Maybe if I try hard, very hard. This is why I now understand the significance of words, definitions, concepts, and opinions with objective reasons.

My purpose is to try to achieve black or white with the assistance of grays. A challenge in itself, but worth all the effort. Living with grays is what most of us do, we do not question and if at all we do, we are not patient enough to look for answers. Questioning is a start but just questioning is not good enough.

Thursday, October 18, 2007


A freaking chaos
Made worse with the inability to understand or express

Wednesday, October 17, 2007


A clean new surface

The space

The shape

The balance


Finally, on paper.

Friday, October 12, 2007


Sunita Williams is a United States Naval officer and a NASA Astronaut She was assigned to the International Space Station as a member of Expedition 14 and then joined Expedition 15. She holds three records for female space travelers: longest spaceflight (195 days), number of space walks (four), and total time spent on spacewalks (29 hours and 17 minutes). (Wikipedia)

I happen to watch her interview on TV on a news channel. Apart from other interesting things that she did convey on the interview, one thing that was so thrilling was the way she described how she saw the earth from space. I am unable to quote, but she said that from space the earth looks one and not as separate continents. The lines that we create to divide the world as continents is just on paper. Every individual is a citizen of the world.

I do believe so and I am sure, a lot of us do.
This is something that I speculated quite some time ago and expressed it as Simplicity. Sunita Williams has described it so much more beautifully in words. I admire her.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Concept, entity, identity, unit, abstraction, integration, isolation, language, word, science, mathematics, measurement, definition, similarity, difference, characteristic, universals, relationship, percept, sense, cognition, consciousness.

A world of knowledge.

Sunday, October 07, 2007


Thank You.

Thursday, October 04, 2007


Past few days some things had begun to bother me, things about myself that I could not understand, the uneasiness, that I have lived with for years but not questioned it until recently. I was unaware of what the reasons for it were and hence it was difficult to comprehend and express those thoughts clearly. Maybe now I can, thanks to an excellent and insightful book on psychology that I happen to read last evening that has come to the rescue. I am still working on the solution although, the problem is clearer. I do believe, accepting that there is a “problem” is half the problem solved.

I have come to realize what I always felt that, as long as I am working, thinking about my work, creating, and “in my own world” I feel at home and I am happy. That world always seemed more real to me than the external world. And, when I am not working or creating due to a mind block or because of other reasons, I do not know what to do with myself. I feel chaotic, lack of control stemming from lack of understanding of people or situations. Consciously, I have not tried to escape to my inner world or use it as a distraction from the outside world. I have just not felt the need to really acknowledge and respect the existence of the external world the way I should have and I guess this is where I faltered. At present what I am facing is a clash between both these worlds, the world inside, the one I want to be to a part of and, the outside world that I need to or have to accept in order to survive.

Before I decided to embark on the career that I am pursuing now, I was aware of it’s implications in terms of withdrawing myself more from the outside world, of loosing myself more to myself and of going deeper into my shell, I was not aware of the severe symptoms of this withdrawal, the ones I am facing now. It is like waking up suddenly from a very deep sleep and not knowing where I am, kind of lost. Now, I have to find my way

The book that I am reading is “Beyond Fear” by Dorothy Rowe. I have just started to read it and there is much more to know and understand.

Monday, October 01, 2007

A to Z


Long way to go.